When people think of a long distance relationship, they think about the things they won't get to do together, the times they won't spent together and the kisses they'd miss like crazy.
What happens when you don't remember why you even wanted to do 'those things' together? When you forget the feeling of spending time? When you can only imagine his lips on yours,knowing it'd FEEL great, but you don't remember. You don't remember whats that FEELING.
What happens then?
Is it not worth that much anymore? because you cant decide whats that feeling that made you so excited to go out with him even if its just 15 minutes today near our homes.
You get so excited to hear his voice, only to dread the quarrels that follow tonight. You only see and feel the quarrels, the tears and the absence.
What you don't see or feel, is that amazing love, that amazing feeling when you're alone with him and you know that without him, your world would not be worth living. That's what you forget. I forget. Sometimes.
I even forget who he is. I forget how he would always try to hold me and tell me that I am the most beautiful girl in the world. I forget. I don't remember that he's the guy that makes me laugh even when with tears in my eyes,yes he's that guy. He tells me I look amazing even when i don't. He's the guy that reaches for my hand that yearns for his kisses.Everyday, I remind myself. I try my best to.Because, a day gone without feeling and knowing whom the love of my life truly is, is a day wasted. Because, I wouldn't be loving him for him. And right now,today I do. I do remember.
So to me, the hardest part of being away is to remember what it feels like to be together,exactly what it FEELS like.
Yours truly, with love.
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